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Hey Blog Freaks!
Happy 4th of July to everyone! I love the 4th of July and I love to celebrate it in style! However, I'm not doing the 4th in style this year, but one day I will. I know that. I love watching the fireworks over the water while the band plays that famous song (I can't remember the name).
I'm watching TV with the kids and getting distracted from my thoughts. . . .
I took a personality test yesterday with this therapist I've seen a few times. It turns out that my personality type is that of the 'helper'. This means that when I think of a situation or an action I first think about how it will affect others rather than how it will affect myself. I knew I was a giver/helper type, but it was the first time I really digested the fact that some people only think of actions or situations and how it will effect them rather than how it will effect others. Everyone is different and I believe we are created by God so I am not saying that either mind set is good or bad, just different. However, any personality type to the extreme or distorted becomes toxic.
Realizing that it is my nature to think of others first and also knowing that lately I've been thinking of myself and my desires first is a step in the right direction.
I can now understand why I've worried about my kids and my husband so much and worried about how life changes would effect them. Wanting them to be ok, well adjusted, like it is my job to make sure everyone is okay. Now it is my job to take care of my children and provide them with a loving home and teach them the morals and standards I think God wants them to live by, but there is a place where I end and everyone else begins. I need to do what I think is the right action and leave the rest up to God. Understanding my personality and understanding that I have become distorted in my role as a mom and a wife helps me to unhook from the over-demanding-taking-too-much-responsibility aspect of myself.
I also learned that when I am actually operating in a healthy mode for my personality I will be in the category of Romantic rather than Helper. I find this interesting because I have been getting in touch a lot more with my romantic and sensual side lately. I'm thinking to myself it is part of my mid-life crises and yesterday I found out that it is really my true nature. So it makes sense that I picked a 'boss' type as a spouse because I'm not really concerned with organization or direction like he is and I used to really beat myself up that I wasn't more of an achiever. I was so concerned with it, that I actually became an accountant in my business I had with my husband and when I was in college I hated accounting. I am proud to say that I am starting a new business and it has nothing to do with accounting!! It is something that will embrace my creativity and my people skills. Finally, for the first time I am focusing on my growth in a way that is connected with who I really am. AND for the first time in my life I am not ashamed or discouraged by who I am.
When I found out that I was a romantic I started making sense of things. Why it is important for me to buy 400 thread count sheets for my kids (cuz they just feel so good). Why I like sexy clothes and lots of shoes! Why I love to get pedicures and massages! Why I love to pamper others in ways that most people don't think of. I have to go now because my kids will not calm down until I go see them and give them a foot massage. Yes, I give my kids who are only 7 and 9 foot massages and 400 threat count sheets. Shouldn't everyone have a mom like me?
Later Blog Freaks! Lisa
Happy 4th of July to everyone! I love the 4th of July and I love to celebrate it in style! However, I'm not doing the 4th in style this year, but one day I will. I know that. I love watching the fireworks over the water while the band plays that famous song (I can't remember the name).
I'm watching TV with the kids and getting distracted from my thoughts. . . .
I took a personality test yesterday with this therapist I've seen a few times. It turns out that my personality type is that of the 'helper'. This means that when I think of a situation or an action I first think about how it will affect others rather than how it will affect myself. I knew I was a giver/helper type, but it was the first time I really digested the fact that some people only think of actions or situations and how it will effect them rather than how it will effect others. Everyone is different and I believe we are created by God so I am not saying that either mind set is good or bad, just different. However, any personality type to the extreme or distorted becomes toxic.
Realizing that it is my nature to think of others first and also knowing that lately I've been thinking of myself and my desires first is a step in the right direction.
I can now understand why I've worried about my kids and my husband so much and worried about how life changes would effect them. Wanting them to be ok, well adjusted, like it is my job to make sure everyone is okay. Now it is my job to take care of my children and provide them with a loving home and teach them the morals and standards I think God wants them to live by, but there is a place where I end and everyone else begins. I need to do what I think is the right action and leave the rest up to God. Understanding my personality and understanding that I have become distorted in my role as a mom and a wife helps me to unhook from the over-demanding-taking-too-much-responsibility aspect of myself.
I also learned that when I am actually operating in a healthy mode for my personality I will be in the category of Romantic rather than Helper. I find this interesting because I have been getting in touch a lot more with my romantic and sensual side lately. I'm thinking to myself it is part of my mid-life crises and yesterday I found out that it is really my true nature. So it makes sense that I picked a 'boss' type as a spouse because I'm not really concerned with organization or direction like he is and I used to really beat myself up that I wasn't more of an achiever. I was so concerned with it, that I actually became an accountant in my business I had with my husband and when I was in college I hated accounting. I am proud to say that I am starting a new business and it has nothing to do with accounting!! It is something that will embrace my creativity and my people skills. Finally, for the first time I am focusing on my growth in a way that is connected with who I really am. AND for the first time in my life I am not ashamed or discouraged by who I am.
When I found out that I was a romantic I started making sense of things. Why it is important for me to buy 400 thread count sheets for my kids (cuz they just feel so good). Why I like sexy clothes and lots of shoes! Why I love to get pedicures and massages! Why I love to pamper others in ways that most people don't think of. I have to go now because my kids will not calm down until I go see them and give them a foot massage. Yes, I give my kids who are only 7 and 9 foot massages and 400 threat count sheets. Shouldn't everyone have a mom like me?
Later Blog Freaks! Lisa
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