It's OK To Disagree
I hope:
You have more joy, love, laughter.
I hope:
You'll have more than you'll ever need.
I hope:
You'll have all the happy ever after's.
I hope:
We can loose all the pain and misery.
I wish:
Life was as easy as a song. We could just sing about it and everything would be better. We could just sing about it and everyone would get it, they would understand.
I wish:
My husband wouldn't get so hurt when I don't want to talk - I want to get lost in my thoughts - listening to my new CD - thinking about the kids - thinking about me - thinking my head is getting clearer - feeling like God is blessing me for staying sober - 30 days today - that was a long 30 days - too long! So very very strange. I had 15 years of total sobriety. Today I have 30 days. Just too damn weird! Just so different too. When I was 23 years old it was like I was living a non-productive life or on my way to becoming a looser or something - like somehow I had been a bad girl. This time it is so not like that for me. It is like I need a clean head so I can think and move forward in the direction that is best for me for the next half of my life. How am I going to be the best mom for my kids? How am I going to live my potential, my potential, not anyone else's. My life. Not our life. Not your life. My life. My children. My choices. My desires. My needs. My acceptance of myself.
It's so hard when it doesn't come easy. It's so hard when it doesn't come fast. Don't give up. Don't give in. Be strong. Have Hope. Smile. Don't dwell on what you don't have. If you keep taking the little steps one day you will awake and realize you are living the life God meant for you to live - no chains, no bars, but freedom, light heartedness. The heaviness will have faded away and it will be MY LIFE.
Late Ya Blog Freaks - Now go get freaky - Lisa
You have more joy, love, laughter.
I hope:
You'll have more than you'll ever need.
I hope:
You'll have all the happy ever after's.
I hope:
We can loose all the pain and misery.
I wish:
Life was as easy as a song. We could just sing about it and everything would be better. We could just sing about it and everyone would get it, they would understand.
I wish:
My husband wouldn't get so hurt when I don't want to talk - I want to get lost in my thoughts - listening to my new CD - thinking about the kids - thinking about me - thinking my head is getting clearer - feeling like God is blessing me for staying sober - 30 days today - that was a long 30 days - too long! So very very strange. I had 15 years of total sobriety. Today I have 30 days. Just too damn weird! Just so different too. When I was 23 years old it was like I was living a non-productive life or on my way to becoming a looser or something - like somehow I had been a bad girl. This time it is so not like that for me. It is like I need a clean head so I can think and move forward in the direction that is best for me for the next half of my life. How am I going to be the best mom for my kids? How am I going to live my potential, my potential, not anyone else's. My life. Not our life. Not your life. My life. My children. My choices. My desires. My needs. My acceptance of myself.
It's so hard when it doesn't come easy. It's so hard when it doesn't come fast. Don't give up. Don't give in. Be strong. Have Hope. Smile. Don't dwell on what you don't have. If you keep taking the little steps one day you will awake and realize you are living the life God meant for you to live - no chains, no bars, but freedom, light heartedness. The heaviness will have faded away and it will be MY LIFE.
Late Ya Blog Freaks - Now go get freaky - Lisa
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